Choices

I make a choice in my mind, then somehow don't follow that choice in reality. I tell myself, "this is who I am going to be" and then do things opposite of who I want to be. It's so easy to blame our choices on others when in reality it was us who chose to do it long before we were ever influenced. Maybe I'm my biggest influence, or maybe my emotions are my biggest influences? I make the choice but can't follow up on that choice. Doesn't make sense.

One whole day. One whole day where I decide in my mind what I will or won't do and then actually do or don't do it. Funny thing is, as easy as that sounds, it's the hardest thing for me to do. I have the power to convince myself. Why? When I make a choice where does this power of influence against that choice come from, is it within me or my mind? Doesn't make sense.

I'm going to put myself to the test. For day, one hour, and one minute I am going to make choices that support who I want to be. I'm sure that power of convincing and influence will come, but I won't fail. I'm curious to see the power I possess within myself when I follow through on the choices I make in my heart and mind. I want to see and feel the changes, the difficulties, and the happiness that comes from simply being true to myself. One day may change everything.